Coming back
Once again, the idea of coming back for good bugs me again.
This weekend, I stayed in KL for 3 consecutive days, I experienced the jam and the chaos of KL that I found I miss so much. But most importantly, I miss spending time with my family and my friends. All of a sudden, coming back KL is not a very bad idea after all.
This is why I always can't make up my mind of taking up PR in Singapore, I still can't say I really like the place until that I want to stay there for long. Again and again, me and my gang will still ask ourselves, why is it so boring in Singapore? Is it really the lack of activities and activities partners? Or there's no family around that fills up the responsibilities we used to have and gives us the reason to stay at home over the weekend? Or is it the whole environment that makes life there so boring?
I think in the end, it's still the same, even if I come back to KL, after 3 months, I will still say it's boring, too chaotic, the lousy infrastructure and public transport and all sorts of other complaints. So what's the problem? The problem is in me.
Why english?
Have you ever wondered one thing?
Why do people like to speak English when they are in bed? Let's say you know how to speak English, BM, Cantonese Hokkien and Mandarin, which language you prefer when you are having sex in bed (or any other place) with your partner?
Please try to imagine and repeat the following example in your brain with emotion.
Example 1:
English: Oh, fuck me.
BM: Oh, XXX (OMG, I don't know the word actually, please educate me) aku.
Cantonese: Oh, tiu ngor. (It sounds all wrong.)
Hokkien: Oh, kan wa. (Still wrong.)
Mandarin: Oh, cao/diao wor. (As wrong as ever.)
Example 2:
E: Harder, harder.
BM: Kuat sikit.
C: Tai lik d.
H: Dua lat. (I'm not sure about this.)
M: Da li dian.
Example 3:
E: I want it on the ass.
BM: Aku maunya di punggung.
C: Ngor yew hai lor yao dou. (This will be a major turn off, I don't know why.)
H: Wa ai kah jui. (Again, not sure about his.)
M: Wo yao zai pi gu na er.
So well, you get what i mean. It just sounds all wrong for all other language besides English. If my partner respond to me with any language other than English (or maybe Cantonese) in the above example, it will be A MAJOR TURN OFF.
Maybe it's the porn show thing? Or because of movies? Do girls actually feel more sexy when they speak English during the session? Maybe you can tell me why.
This Great Show of Getting Married
Ok, here's a post after a loooooooooong time.
Maybe I should start from this wedding dinner I attended on Monday. A good friend I know since secondary school is getting married, I know both him and his wife for so many years, in fact they have been together since N years ago. So when I heard that they are getting married, I'm really happy for them.
As usual, they showed this video of the morning when the heng dai's went to get the bride with the bridegroom. It was produced by this friend who is in the video producing industry, so the quality is of professional level and it's certainly very enjoyable. When I was watching the video, I couldn't help but laugh for the funny moments, and I realized that this was the first time ever I felt really really happy for a married couple, because I'm seeing a good friend getting married. I mean... I always felt happy for a friend to get married, but this dinner, the happiness is abit different. Looking at all the familiar faces in the video, I know each of them, for more than 10 years. And all of a sudden, I begin to understand why people love to spend so much on getting married. The ring, the photos, the costume, the car rental, the dinner, I always, and I still think that it's a waste of money and time, why should I spend so much money and time to do a show for the whole world when getting married is a very very personal thing?
It's the happiness of sharing the happiness. It has the effect of touching people's heart, like the video touching some deep corners inside my brain, or my heart, and making people like me, who usually don't give a damn and care for anybody's wedding at all, feel genuinely happy, and smile warmly for the 'Awwwww......' moment.
Did I mention before that I like chick flick? The so called romantic comedy genre? I like to watch rom-com movies because it's always happy ending, or maybe most of the time, where the couple live happily ever after. I will feel good to see it happening in a fictionalize world.
So the effect is kind of the same for me, when I witness a good friend getting married happily, when the couple in a movie live happily ever after, it's a happy ending. I just love happy ending.
So close
It's so close that it's within my grasp. Yet the moment it shows, the next moment it's gone. I will not regret, although I have been thinking about it for so long.
The final revelation comes with big surprises and shocks, everything I hoped for, is suddenly so real in front of me. But instead of accepting it, I doubt it and voice out my doubts. In return, it all vanished and everything goes to hell after that.
I won't buy that crap, there's no way it can work out that way, I will do my part, and I believe everyone else should do their part too. If I'm going to swallow it and accept it without any explanation and consideration, that's not me anymore. I want honest and fruitful discussion, not emotional and all hell break lose kind of conversation.
I have not been expecting it anyway, I won't feel it even if I lost it.
Cough
During last year's Chinese new year, I had this coughing problem for 3 months, I visited the doctor few times and took different type of medicine. After 3 months, I recovered without actively taking any medicine, the coughing just stopped. This made me wondering if I really need all those medicine to recover...
This year, history repeats itself, I have been coughing for about a month, I have visited 2 doctors, one in Singapore, one in KL. Both diagnosed that there's nothing wrong with my lungs but it's my trachea that is giving me problem. Apparently I didn't fully recover from the flu I caught last year's Christmas, the trachea remained sensitive and I didn't stop taking in cold stuff such as beer and ice cream.
The cough will only start in the night, everything is ok during the morning. This makes the problem worse because I just can't sleep when the cough starts. Imagine that when I close my eyes and try to get some sleep, my throat gets so itchy that I just can't stop coughing. Things just get worse when I start having sore throat, I'm not even sure if it's the coughing that causes the sore throat.
So here am I, trying to write something on my blog since 6am just now, I woke up coughing, without getting any good sleep last night. But since it's morning now, the coughing stops, it should be a good time to sleep now, but too bad I need to start work soon. Well, luckily the coughing doesn't come during day time, so at least it's not affecting my job....
First post of 2008
I can't imagine I'm doing something so lame for my first post of 2008.
Joanna 'Cibetz' Choong had tagged me, it's so lame, but WTF, I'll just play along.
Remember to mention the person who tagged you.
Pick the month of your birth.
Bold the 5-10 things that most apply to you.
Underline out everything that doesn’t apply to you.
Place the list of all the months under a cut.
Tag 6 people from your friends list to do the same.
My birthday month is:
SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
The rest of the months.
JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
I'm tagging:
1. NOBODY
Vulgarity is contagious
It all started from me (or from Jo?), I can't remember, but now seems like everybody in my gang is full of vulgar. The guys are as usual, always tiu this tiu that, but even the girls like to 'tiu tiu seng' now.
For girls, Jo is still the best when it comes to cantonese swearing, her 'tiuniamachaohaizzz' is the best I ever heard. So from her, the 'disease' spreads before I know what is happening, all the girls in the gang now like to swear like nobody is listening by the side.
Example:
Miss Kang- My proudest student in 'Swearing in Cantonese for dummies' class, now she can 'tiu' with the correct pronunciation and feelings.
Miss Chua- Multilingual swearing expert, can do it in both Hokkien and Cantonese.
Miss Yu- The one who can shout 'tiu' with extreme enthusiasm but yet it still feels like saying 'Hello'.
Miss Ter- My beloved housemate who always swear in Cantonese and English only, but recently takes a liking in the Hokkien 'KNN' series.
So just for you girls, I took a quick Google just now and found this:
http://www.youswear.com/index.asp?language=Cantonese
Enjoy.
